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August 18, 2025 Today's the first day of school! I just had a lab meeting and I have Biochem in about an hour. I also have ornithology (both lab and lecture) tomorrow which I'm pretty excited for. I'm waiting to see how my job works out now that I'm in school but overall I'm pretty excited for the semester. I'm also really looking forward to fall!

August 15, 2025 Had a busy day at work today and I'm freaking out about school. I have so many things I want to update on this site but I just can't seem to find the time or motivation. It's all quite overwhelming but I'm gonna try to take it one day at a time. It helps to remind myself that I have control over my life and I'm on the right track.

August 8, 2025 I just got back from work and I'm feeling a bit better since my last entry. I think the main thing I was struggling with was being able to feel like I have control over my life. I've been able to take a step back and see things through a new perspective and it's really helped with my anxiety.

August 5, 2025 So, I'm feeling weird right now. It's a mix of stress, mania, excitement, and hopelessness. I'm starting school back up in a couple of weeks and with my job, I won't have a single day off. I'm excited for fall, but I worry I won't get to enjoy it at all due to my schedule. I've also been worried about the future a lot, and I wonder if this is how I will feel 24/7 once I'm out of college and in the working world. I worry about finding something that won't make me hate my life. There are so many things in life I do enjoy but I struggle with picking just one thing and doing that for the rest of my life. My social anxiety also makes me miserable so even if I do find something I enjoy in principle I may just hate it if I have to do a lot of interacting. Anyways, here's a cool drink I had yesterday:

July 23, 2025 I just finished my 2nd day of work today and it was actually really enjoyable! I still have a ton of new-job anxiety but I'm hoping that will subside soon. Also, I attended a concert yesterday and I'm hoping to write a blog post about it soon. I'm also really wanting to update my gallery so it's more interactive but I've just been having such a hard time teaching myself javascript, but I'll keep at it. It is hard to not get overwhelmed with all the things I wanna get finished before school starts back up in the fall, but I'm just gonna keep telling myself it will all be okay, even if my anxiety won't allow me to truly beleive it.

July 20, 2025 I'm starting my new job tommorrow! I'm a little nervous, not about tommorrow but I'm just worried about whether I'll enjoy the job itself or not. I mean the job is really a dream job, (I get to work with animals!), but I have had a lot of things happen in the past which turn an ideal job into a nightmare. I don't think this job will be like that but my anxiety is still working overtime.

July 11, 2025 I have an interview in about an hour and saying I'm a little scared would be an understatement. My job hunt hasn't really been super successful in finding me jobs that I think I would actually enjoy doing; this job is an exception and I really wanna do well. Nothing destroys your confidence quite like getting rejected and ignored as much as you do when looking for jobs. There's also an art intership that I'm looking at whose application is due in a couple of days so I need to finish that up too. It's all been incredibly overwhelming but I just hope that something good comes out of this. UPDATE: I GOT THE JOB!!! I feel so relieved! now I can divert all the energy I put into finding a job into somthing else!

June 25, 2025 I've started a ton of projects recently I'm really excited about! Firstly I started a new art piece; it's a neotraditional-style lazuli bunting drawn in ink. I'm hoping I can find some time to work in the color a bit. Secondly, I've started thinking about my annual cosplay for the upcoming fan convention in my area! I've pretty much narrowed it down to one character I will reveal in the near future, but I'm also planning on getting a head start on 2026's cosplay as well (that one is going to be major undertaking and probably the largest project I will pick up). Finally, I've been organizing my massive rock collection which is quite tedious, especially considering I would like to (eventually) identify all my pieces and sort them based on type. I'm hoping to get my projects page done soon so I can talk more in depth about all of these projects and more.

June 6, 2025 The past couple of weeks have been wildly busy but incredibly productive and enjoyable!Four days ago my friend invited my sister and I to help prop making at a local art studio-type place and we spent all day doing art. I can't say too much about it because a lot of it is confidential but I really enjoyed it and I plan on helping out in the future as well. I've also been continuing with the taxonomy lab volunteer work and I'm really enjoying myself; I've recently been organizing ant specimens and identifying them which is incredibly fascinating. The job search continues but I've been able to find small gigs here and there and I'm hoping to reopen my Etsy shop.

May 19, 2025 I finally finished JellyBite number 2! I'm currently chilling in Southern Utah, and I was able to do some rockhounding. I found so many incredible fossils! I might write another blog post about it. This Summer has been fairly busy so far but in a good way I think; when I get home from this trip I'll continue my job search and I'm also hoping to get my Etsy shop up and running again.

May 14, 2025 I'm back from my trip and I'm currently writing up a blog post for it, so look out for that. I had so much fun the past week and I'm a little sad it's over but I have a couple other things coming up that I'm looking forward to this Summer. First things first though, I'm hoping to get a part time job this Summer to save up some more for school. I'm still going to help out in the taxonomy lab but I do need money. I hoping this turns out to be a fun and productive Summer though!

May 8, 2025 I'm vacationing in San Francisco right now! I don't get to travel as much as I like so this is a good way to kick off the summer. I'll try to write a more in depth blog post about it when I get back cause theres so much to talk about that wont fit in one of these journal entries. I hope you all are doing well and look forward to many more updates coming soon!

April 30, 2025 I'M DONE WITH FINALS!!! I'm super excited for this summer; I have lots of plans including road-tripping, getting my shop up and running, working on the site, helping at the taxonomy lab, starting up a cosplay for this year's fan convention, and much more. I'll try to update the site as much as possible now that I have time off school.

April 24, 2025 Welp it's finals week. I have my first final tomorrow and though I'm not feeling super confident I think that I'll be able to pass the class. This is the closest I've been to failing tho so I may just pull an all-nighter to squeeze in as much info as possible. Just a couple more days of this though and I'll be done. See you on the other side!

April 10, 2025 I've been feeling pretty happy recently! I'm loving the warm spring weather and I only have a coupl weeks of school left! I also met again with the professor today and overall I've been feeling really productive.

April 3, 2025 I'm super proud of myself! Today I met up with a professor to help with his lab and I was able to do some taxonomy-related work. I was super nervous before-hand and my social anxiety was at critical levels; in fact I considered backing out. I stuck with it though and I ended up really enjoying my time! I'm gonna keep trying to put myself out there and hopefully calm some of my anxiety in the process.

March 25, 2025 Today is such a nice spring day! It's a shame that I have to stay inside and study but the sunshine is doing wonders for my seasonal depression regardless.

March 21, 2025 Just found out this week that I failed my second ever college exam. Really not a good feeling but I'm gonna try to use this as an opportunity to do better. Studying has been so hard for me recently, so I'm thinking I could maybe use this site to help make it more interesting. Maybe I could blog my efforts so it feels like less of a chore, idk.

March 9, 2025 Spring break is finally here!! I'll probably spend it coding, doing art, and spring cleaing and I'm fine with that.

March 4, 2025 Today is the day I officially start my blog! I'm looking forward to the future of this website; I have so many ideas and I've been so inspired by many other personal websites on Neocities and the indieweb in general.